I ended it but I'm broken. I love you but I hate you. I love your family more. I'm hurt and sad and happy at the same time. Ive always believed in soulmates even though you didn't buy secretly thought you were mine. Now that everything is over, I'm speechless. I want to move on and I don't.. But I really do. I want someone who will appreciate me, love me and want to spend time with me. Thinking back on the past years with you, I see that I was never treated right but thought it was okay. It's not. I deserve better and want it. I'm so impatient and everyone says when you least expect it.. I least expect it? It doesn't work like that. I'm just so broken. No other way to put it. It really is a shame that throwing away things was easier for me than deleting your family. I'm really going to miss them. It hasn't been too long but I'm not going to lie.. Some days I wake up and miss you. But you don't miss me.. You haven't said anything or made any kind of effort at all and that breaks me more. How much can a heart take? I'm so ready to move on and have fun. It's pathetic that I'm online but I'm more excited for atlantic city. New faces. Old ones. We will see. Only time will tell. Is it so much to want to be loved and to be looked at with adoring eyes. I don't know the feeling. I hate this.